So Many More Than 30

As I sift through my shattered life, I am also trying to gear myself up for the holidays.  Today, I remembered my Thanksgiving gift to Matt last year - the email copied below.  Now it seems superficial and small and way too short.  I am not okay, and I fear I will never be, but maybe remembering these small things will help.  More importantly, I hope these memories help me answer Daphne's questions in the future.

From: Carolyn
Date: November 22, 2012, 9:03:21 AM CST
To: Matt
Subject: Reasons I am thankful for you

Reasons I am thankful for you:

1:  You love me despite my dervish (his nickname for my cooking messes)

2:  You are so in love with Daphne 

3:  Our lazy Sunday afternoons at home 

4:  You work so hard to stay healthy and have overcome so much 

5:  You share the load of dishes and diaper laundry 

6:  You listen to love songs, think of me, and share the song with me 

7:  You are supportive of my career and where it might take me 

8:  You want to provide for our family even if that means changing jobs 

9:  You pursue your own hobbies and are really good at them 

10:  You love my family and go hang on the island (to hunt deer) even though it's not your thing 

11 :  Watching tv is more fun with you because you laugh freely and it is contagious 

12:  You take care of me and make sure I have what I need  

13:  You kiss me very time you get home and every time we part 

14:  You appreciate good food 

15:  You snuggle me before we sleep 

16:  You call Daphne "sleepy beepy" when she is tired or asleep

17:  You like my skinny jeans 

18:  You are so gosh darn handsome 

19:  You are smarter than you give yourself credit for 

20: You tell me everything 

21:  You are so slow, but you are trying to be more on time :-) 

22:  You clean up my water glasses 

23:  You are good at long-distance driving 

24:  You are really good at job interviews 

25:  You use grammar when you text 

26:  You tell me you love me every time we part in person or on the phone 

27:  You gave our daughter your deep blue eyes and long lashes 

28:  You read to me before bed 

29:  Daphne lights up when she sees you 

30:  You make me feel important and needed and loved.   

I love you Matt Foster. And I'm thankful for you every minute of every day.  Happy Thanksgiving!